I wanted to get a tattoo of the Ouroboros symbol. Or in some cases, my efforts are not appreciated nor valued as much as I treasured others. I can't keep giving things or people my all to the point I take everything else for granted. It made it clear to me what kind of person I am, or was.Īnd I needed a sort of control, self-control. And later on, after more than a decade, I have been enlightened with the help of his words. I have done what I always thought was right and I wouldn't change a thing. Little things done by people I consider friends became such big deals because I couldn't bare the thought of them being able to do such feats and it devastated me. If I enjoyed a job, I took things to a personal level and it messed with me. It seems that if I loved, I loved too much. And that is how I adapted the last name, 'Ouroboros'.Ī lot of other things I have realized and have come to understand about myself. Better myself to the point where if I have to shed parts of myself, may it be good or bad, if it meant I'd be a wiser, stronger and generally a better individual. And that is, logically, to correct my mistakes, learn from them and never do them again. I have established a sort of process as to how I will have to deal with the outcome of a story left with an unpleasant ending. That I can safely say without a stain of a doubt.Īnd because of all the failures and pain I have encountered in my life, unfortunately. Though if I have done something unforgivable, it is purely unintentional. I have done my fair share of terrible feats caused by reckless decisions. But of course, because of my defeats, I have learned quite a ton of things as well. This unforgiving cycle has yielded myself nothing but bitter sweet memories and a weakened drive to move forward. It was amusing at first how I'd be the happiest man alive, then the next thing I know, I don't even know if I'm growling or crying. As soon as I start getting used to how great everything is, I fall and end up basking in my own lament of failure. It was almost as if my entire life has been nothing but a continuous cycle of glorious victories followed by tragic endings.
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